Friday, December 17, 2010

Helicopter Human

This morning I had a bit of an epiphany. I woke up at 3:12 a.m. realized that I needed to go back to sleep. I received a helicopter as a pre-Christmas gift. As I was thinking about the helicopter and how it moves I was reminded that just a small amount of adjustment in the controls results in a large movement in the 'copter.
This is the same way that we move through life. We receive a small nudge in a certain direction from God and we then build on it. Sometimes we overcorrect and end up going off in our own way. Then we struggle to get onto the right path again.



God is always there to correct our path, sometimes more forcefully than others. No matter what, God is always there.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

11-20 Saturday


Saturday morning and it is pretty early to be awake. I really like the quiet atmosphere of the early morning, unfortunately I usually break that up with the sound of the coffee grinder. There is a trade-off between the sense of sound and the sense of smell. They seem to stand about equal, the  smell of coffee being ground and the peaceful solitude of early morning.

For some reason I am reminded of the story: The Phantom Tollbooth. 



Perhaps it is because of the story of the musical director. He has command of all the instruments that make sound in the morning, even a way to paint the sky through music that he conducts. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

11-17 It Approacheth

November 17, 2010

The wind was biting and cold this morning. When I looked up, the clouds had the back-lit snow-sky appearance. All the outdoor noises were also compressed, mainly due to the air being cold and heavy. The smells were very vegetable in origin, all the wet leaves lying around tend to start a rotting smell that is not necessarily unpleasant - it just smells like Fall.

There really is a large weather system headed our way. It will significantly cause a disruption in many people's lives (especially the poor individuals at your local Les Schwab tire store for chains or for studded tires). Fortunately it will not be so cold as to get below 30F, at least that is the forecast.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Two Months

As I write this it is now either extremely early in the morning or veryyy late at night. I was given some terrible grief bringing news today.  My friend and next door neighbor had just been to see the doctor and it was determined that his cancer was back and had spread quickly. They said he had about two months to live.

Time to get the paper. As I walk down our driveway, I feel a light mist falling and all the sounds  are muted. Everything is dripping and hanging loosely. This makes the entire yard appear to be undone.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

11-10

This morning everything was still and silent. There wasn't even enough breeze to cause the few crinkly leaves left on the Birch trees to make a noise. The clouds were hanging low over Portland to the North. They had the look of a "snow sky". This is best described by far off lights being reflected

through the clouds to the point of a whole section of sky being lit up as though a huge fluorescent light was tucked up behind the clouds diffusing through the cloud layers. I've seen this type of 'sky lighting' every Winter when the snow level lowers so I'm pretty sure the special type of sky lighting is directly attached to the lowering of the snow/freezing level.

I am feeling much better than I did on Sunday/Monday. The feeling of having worked out too hard is gone. I am now left with a kind of continuous ache, in the area where surgical work was most recently completed (my kidneys). This too will heal and soon feel better. Please continue to pray for increased healing and lessened pain - Thank You!

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

11/9

The clouds banded the darkness above me, the clouds had definitely been ripped and torn from a larger cloud formation.
There was just a light breeze, not enough to pull the screen door out of my hand as is the case during a real storm, but enough to make a continuous noise through the trees. Very cool. The snow level is reported to be lowering to below pass levels. It looks like were are in for some pretty stormy weather coming up.
The work on my kidney in the hospital went well, it just takes a while to recover. It felt as though I had been through a very physical workout, without properly warming up before-hand. Finally, many of my muscles have decided to feel normal again.

Thursday Morning 11/4

This morning Orion and Canis Major led me down the driveway to get the newspaper,

and the question mark formation of the "Big Dipper" was over my house as I walked back.



It doesn't always look like a question mark, but it was oriented just right due to the Earth's rotation so that is what it appeared to be. Orion is mentioned in Job 38:31. It is interesting to note that what we see as "Orion" is in fact a grouping of stars that are all bound by gravitational forces. Bound together by God. A similar arrangement exists with the stars in the big dipper, also known as Ursa Major (The Big Bear- Job 38:32)

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Misty Morning Two

This morning on my way down our long driveway to get the newspaper, I noticed that I could see stars if I looked almost directly overhead, even though the entire neighborhood was covered in a heavy fog. What added to the scene was the mist dripping from the leaves of the trees. The other awesome addition was the Cheshire Cat smile of the moon through the mist.

Personally, I feel pretty good today - but still I'm quite swollen. The swelling is from my lymph nodes becoming filled, but unable to transport the fluid out and away through the lymphatic system as efficiently as they could.

I have the possibility of being admitted to the hospital today for some work on my kidney's function. As of a 1/2 hour from now I am to not eat anything in preparation for possible anesthesia.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

10-31 early morning

Good Morning!

I enjoy getting up early in the morning. This morning I have my usual aches and pains that are common to anyone upon awakening. I also have some additional pain due to the tumorous growth.The pain management plan devised by my doctor appears to be working and I am thankful for that.

There is swelling in my legs and feet today due to my kidneys not functioning at 100% capacity-which was discovered on Thursday. I am scheduled to see a specialist about this tomorrow. The strange feeling from the swelling is compounded by the neuralpathy I experience in my hands and feet. The neuralpathy is a hold over side-effect from chemotherapy treatment I had finished several months ago.

Outside, the fog is slowly drifting in between the houses and it helps to give everything a fall look. As the sun is just barely peaking around the Mollala foothills the fog refracts the low incoming light in a way that just says, "fall is here."